Yesterday afternoon my right shoulder started to hurt, and is still sore this morning- so I am going to just stick to cardio, abs and leg weights for a couple of days. Will also talk to one of the trainers to see if there is something I am doing wrong.
Weigh-in this morning and despite not really tracking my food I have lost 600grams... which I am happy about, the scales are going back in the right direction
Friday, June 25, 2010
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Still haven't missed a day
I'm happy to report that I still haven't missed a day at the gym... even today when I really didn't feel like going, I still went at 6.30 tonight after I had finished at the hairdressers.
I am starting to feel slightly more energised... only slightly though... but any improvement is good- oh and I feel like I am sleeping better.
Speaking of sleep- I'm off for a shower and then bed- busy day planned for tomorrow... have a client in the morning, then planning on going to the gym :)
I am starting to feel slightly more energised... only slightly though... but any improvement is good- oh and I feel like I am sleeping better.
Speaking of sleep- I'm off for a shower and then bed- busy day planned for tomorrow... have a client in the morning, then planning on going to the gym :)
Monday, June 21, 2010
4 days and counting...
Today was my 4th day in a row of going to the gym. :)
I knew that I had to see a client before I went to the gym, and I also knew that if I came home to get ready I would be less inclined to go back out (cold and miserable day here). So I packed my gym clothes and shoes into my bag this morning before I left the house. Even when I realised I had forgotten to pack a pair of socks I refused to let the temptation of going home get to me so I called into a supermarket and picked up a pair of socks on my way to the gym.
So I got to the gym and I was the only one in the cardio room (sweet- no one standing behind me seeing my big butt wobble) and after my 15 minute warm up (@5 kph) [program says a 10 minute workout at 4kph- but I can comfortably do the 5kph- so why not?] I headed up to the weights room. There was only one guy in there and by the time I had gotten halfway through my first rotation he left. So I was able to grunt my way through an extra set of crunches (why why do I do it to myself...lol... oh that's right... I want abs that are firm not this current pillow that's shoved under my skin.) Then it was back onto the treadmill for another 15 minutes- this time @ 4kph [program says 10 mins @3.5] I checked with one of the trainers as I was leaving about adding the extra time and speed on the treadmill and he said it was fine as long as I didn't push myself too far.
When it came time for my second go on the treadmill today I didn't really feel like doing it- but I just set it to beep every minute, and I closed my eyes (kept hands resting on side bars for balance) and pictured myself being fit and healthy and actually running LMAO @ the idea of me running... anyway I did that and before I knew it my 15 minutes was up and the treadmill was in cool down mode and slowing down.
I think I like going to the gym when there is no one else around :)
I have a little external motivator... if I go to the gym every day for a month I get to reward myself with either a massage or a go in the floatation tank. I'm thinking the floatation tank :)
Flotation therapy is essentially a process of placing the body into a state of total relaxation. This usually occurs in a specially constructed bath. The water has salts and minerals dissolved into the bath to enable the body to float. There are close similarities between this form of therapy and eastern techniques of meditation. Floatation therapy is really based on a single important principle. While we are active in the ordinary world, we experience stress and conflict that is incorporated into our daily routines and habitual patterns of activity. These habitual patterns often become locked into neurotic and energy depriving actions. Some people smoke, or drink to cope with this " normal" situation of anxiety and stress.
The flotation tank is a therapeutic area that breaks these habitual responses and reactions, and allows the mind and body to regenerate their natural energy without interference from the patterns of the outside world.
I think it sounds pretty cool- and there is one at the gym, so I can go after my workout when I've reached my one month mark.
Oh and I am loving my gym shoes- they are so comfortable... normally I hate shoes, but this time I went and got fitted properly and spent some money on decent shoes and now I hate taking them off (looks down- yep still have them on :) )
Anyway I do need to get out of them and go and have a shower and get the evening started... gym again tomorrow :)
I knew that I had to see a client before I went to the gym, and I also knew that if I came home to get ready I would be less inclined to go back out (cold and miserable day here). So I packed my gym clothes and shoes into my bag this morning before I left the house. Even when I realised I had forgotten to pack a pair of socks I refused to let the temptation of going home get to me so I called into a supermarket and picked up a pair of socks on my way to the gym.
So I got to the gym and I was the only one in the cardio room (sweet- no one standing behind me seeing my big butt wobble) and after my 15 minute warm up (@5 kph) [program says a 10 minute workout at 4kph- but I can comfortably do the 5kph- so why not?] I headed up to the weights room. There was only one guy in there and by the time I had gotten halfway through my first rotation he left. So I was able to grunt my way through an extra set of crunches (why why do I do it to myself...lol... oh that's right... I want abs that are firm not this current pillow that's shoved under my skin.) Then it was back onto the treadmill for another 15 minutes- this time @ 4kph [program says 10 mins @3.5] I checked with one of the trainers as I was leaving about adding the extra time and speed on the treadmill and he said it was fine as long as I didn't push myself too far.
When it came time for my second go on the treadmill today I didn't really feel like doing it- but I just set it to beep every minute, and I closed my eyes (kept hands resting on side bars for balance) and pictured myself being fit and healthy and actually running LMAO @ the idea of me running... anyway I did that and before I knew it my 15 minutes was up and the treadmill was in cool down mode and slowing down.
I think I like going to the gym when there is no one else around :)
I have a little external motivator... if I go to the gym every day for a month I get to reward myself with either a massage or a go in the floatation tank. I'm thinking the floatation tank :)
Flotation therapy is essentially a process of placing the body into a state of total relaxation. This usually occurs in a specially constructed bath. The water has salts and minerals dissolved into the bath to enable the body to float. There are close similarities between this form of therapy and eastern techniques of meditation. Floatation therapy is really based on a single important principle. While we are active in the ordinary world, we experience stress and conflict that is incorporated into our daily routines and habitual patterns of activity. These habitual patterns often become locked into neurotic and energy depriving actions. Some people smoke, or drink to cope with this " normal" situation of anxiety and stress.
The flotation tank is a therapeutic area that breaks these habitual responses and reactions, and allows the mind and body to regenerate their natural energy without interference from the patterns of the outside world.
I think it sounds pretty cool- and there is one at the gym, so I can go after my workout when I've reached my one month mark.
Oh and I am loving my gym shoes- they are so comfortable... normally I hate shoes, but this time I went and got fitted properly and spent some money on decent shoes and now I hate taking them off (looks down- yep still have them on :) )
Anyway I do need to get out of them and go and have a shower and get the evening started... gym again tomorrow :)
Sunday, June 20, 2010
3 days in a row so far :)
I've been to the gym everyday so far- ok so it may only be 3 days, but that is 3 more days than I did the week before.
My food intake has been all over the place, and my water intake is not what it should be- but I am trying to get back on track.
So my gym experience.... it's good fun... and although I am going everyday I am only building up to it all slowly. That said today was cardio and abs day ... as it is everyday... and I did 5 sets of 20 crunches and 3 sets of 10 reverse crunches. And since then everytime I move I am very aware of my abs...lol... they hurt, but that is a good thing- it means that I am working them. So far my cardio experience has been limited to the treaadmill, but that is ok... I am going to try other equipment but for now it's a brisk walk (well brisk for me) on the treadmill.
On the work front- I have been surprised at how well people are responding to the idea of me doing what I do on a mobile basis. It has been really good, and hopefully will continue the same way.
I do miss going to the salon, I miss the regular contact with people, I miss the girls I worked with, but as everyone keeps telling me- one door closes another one opens. I am trying to make myself believe that all of this happened for a reason- it still doesn't help with the hurt at how my time in the salon ended, but it does help me focus more on moving on.
Hope everyone has a good week... I have a client booked in for tomorrow morning, so I will be going to the gym after lunch. (*yay* weights tomorrow- I like weights even though they hurt...lol)
Bella
My food intake has been all over the place, and my water intake is not what it should be- but I am trying to get back on track.
So my gym experience.... it's good fun... and although I am going everyday I am only building up to it all slowly. That said today was cardio and abs day ... as it is everyday... and I did 5 sets of 20 crunches and 3 sets of 10 reverse crunches. And since then everytime I move I am very aware of my abs...lol... they hurt, but that is a good thing- it means that I am working them. So far my cardio experience has been limited to the treaadmill, but that is ok... I am going to try other equipment but for now it's a brisk walk (well brisk for me) on the treadmill.
On the work front- I have been surprised at how well people are responding to the idea of me doing what I do on a mobile basis. It has been really good, and hopefully will continue the same way.
I do miss going to the salon, I miss the regular contact with people, I miss the girls I worked with, but as everyone keeps telling me- one door closes another one opens. I am trying to make myself believe that all of this happened for a reason- it still doesn't help with the hurt at how my time in the salon ended, but it does help me focus more on moving on.
Hope everyone has a good week... I have a client booked in for tomorrow morning, so I will be going to the gym after lunch. (*yay* weights tomorrow- I like weights even though they hurt...lol)
Bella
Friday, June 18, 2010
I'm back...
So I survived, and what's more I'm going back for more of the same tomorrow... well not exactly more of the same but I'm going back and doing a full workout with a trainer (who is doing up a full program for me today). I am going to be going every day- but only doing the weights program every second day. The other day is purely cardio- just for 40 minutes or so, I can get into the routine of going every day (the gym is open every day).
I'm actually really excited- this is going to be so good for me, both physically and mentally.
So until next time, when I'll probably be bitching about being sore...lol
Bella
I'm actually really excited- this is going to be so good for me, both physically and mentally.
So until next time, when I'll probably be bitching about being sore...lol
Bella
T minus 50 minutes
I'm about to go to the gym ... eek!!
So because I've had a couple of weeks off track (ok so maybe more than a couple), I have now changed my weigh-in days to Friday, and will be getting back on track as of today.
Wish me luck... I will let you all know how this mornings torture goes once I am able to.
Bella
PS I at least look the part- got some new shoes :)
So because I've had a couple of weeks off track (ok so maybe more than a couple), I have now changed my weigh-in days to Friday, and will be getting back on track as of today.
Wish me luck... I will let you all know how this mornings torture goes once I am able to.
Bella
PS I at least look the part- got some new shoes :)
Monday, June 14, 2010
new beginnings..... because I need to end all the bad news
Well I haven't stepped on the scales for a couple of weeks, I haven't tracked and quite frankly I haven't really given a damn.
There has been so much bad news surrounding me lately that I have dealt with it in the worst possible way - and that is by comforting myself with food.
If the bad news had only been one or two things I think I could have coped alright, but the last couple of weeks have included:
*our computer blowing up
*our car being smashed in a carpark (this happened my first day back at work after having bronchitis)
---- and now for the really shitty news----
*a dear friend losing her baby girl at fullterm
*family friend passing away
*being told there is a very high chance that my husband has thyroid cancer
*and then culminating in me receiving a TEXT message on Saturday morning informing me that the salon I was working out of no longer requires my services and that I had until the close of business that day to remove my belongings!!
So I have had a lot of crap going on...so weight watchers has been the last of my concerns. But that is about to change.
I start at the gym this Friday *YAY* so I will have an outlet other than food to turn to. And lets face it, I'm going to have more free time to go to the gym now LOL
In regards to work, I have already spoken to most of my regular clients and I will be offering a mobile service- which they seem pretty happy about. And I have picked up a casual job in a coffee shop.
Well I just wanted to update you all on what has been going on... hope you are all well
Bella
There has been so much bad news surrounding me lately that I have dealt with it in the worst possible way - and that is by comforting myself with food.
If the bad news had only been one or two things I think I could have coped alright, but the last couple of weeks have included:
*our computer blowing up
*our car being smashed in a carpark (this happened my first day back at work after having bronchitis)
---- and now for the really shitty news----
*a dear friend losing her baby girl at fullterm
*family friend passing away
*being told there is a very high chance that my husband has thyroid cancer
*and then culminating in me receiving a TEXT message on Saturday morning informing me that the salon I was working out of no longer requires my services and that I had until the close of business that day to remove my belongings!!
So I have had a lot of crap going on...so weight watchers has been the last of my concerns. But that is about to change.
I start at the gym this Friday *YAY* so I will have an outlet other than food to turn to. And lets face it, I'm going to have more free time to go to the gym now LOL
In regards to work, I have already spoken to most of my regular clients and I will be offering a mobile service- which they seem pretty happy about. And I have picked up a casual job in a coffee shop.
Well I just wanted to update you all on what has been going on... hope you are all well
Bella
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Weight loss has slowed... and so maybe has my motivation :(
I really don't know what's going on lately... my weight loss has slowed down - at least I still haven't had a gain. But it still isn't very encouraging or motivating.
See I have figured out I am motivated by results- but they need to be good ones, the more I see the scales go down, the more I want them too. But the last few weeks I haven't seen them going down much and I am feeling like just going "stuff it" and reaching for anything that would make me feel better.
And there's the flaw in my plan... that's what I use to do... that is what got me the fat arse I am so desperate to lose. If I keep doing what I use to do, then it only goes to reason I will keep getting the results I use to get.
I know I've been sick the last few weeks, but I'm feeling better now- so I can't use that as an excuse.
There really isn't any excuse... I've started getting compliments, and when people ask how much I've lost and I proudly tell them I've lost 20kg since January- why isn't that enough to keep me motivated? Why isn't that enough to keep me on track?
I need a good kick up my substantial butt and I need to get back to doing what I know works.
So today I will :
* drink all my water (I'll admit now that I haven't been drinking as much as I should be)
* stay away from the chocolate that seems to have taken up residence in the fridge at work
* eat vegetables for lunch
* go to sleep sometime before midnight.
Right now however I need to get ready for work, I need to put on my face and get over to the salon.
See I have figured out I am motivated by results- but they need to be good ones, the more I see the scales go down, the more I want them too. But the last few weeks I haven't seen them going down much and I am feeling like just going "stuff it" and reaching for anything that would make me feel better.
And there's the flaw in my plan... that's what I use to do... that is what got me the fat arse I am so desperate to lose. If I keep doing what I use to do, then it only goes to reason I will keep getting the results I use to get.
I know I've been sick the last few weeks, but I'm feeling better now- so I can't use that as an excuse.
There really isn't any excuse... I've started getting compliments, and when people ask how much I've lost and I proudly tell them I've lost 20kg since January- why isn't that enough to keep me motivated? Why isn't that enough to keep me on track?
I need a good kick up my substantial butt and I need to get back to doing what I know works.
So today I will :
* drink all my water (I'll admit now that I haven't been drinking as much as I should be)
* stay away from the chocolate that seems to have taken up residence in the fridge at work
* eat vegetables for lunch
* go to sleep sometime before midnight.
Right now however I need to get ready for work, I need to put on my face and get over to the salon.
Sunday, May 30, 2010
New progress photos...
I just had Andrew take photos again- excuse the quality of them, but they are taken with my phone.
I will put up a copy of the collage from Jan 2010, and then put the one from today with it. (In both lots, I am wearing the same singlet top)
The weight difference in the photos is 17.5kg
Went and lay-byed some good training shoes from Athlete's Foot today so when I start up at the gym in a couple of weeks I will have some proper shoes.
I will put up a copy of the collage from Jan 2010, and then put the one from today with it. (In both lots, I am wearing the same singlet top)
The weight difference in the photos is 17.5kg
Went and lay-byed some good training shoes from Athlete's Foot today so when I start up at the gym in a couple of weeks I will have some proper shoes.
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
A bit of a catch up
Today was my week 20 weigh-in...the scales showed a loss of 300grams, which I am quite happy with.
I have literally spent the last 4 days in bed with bronchitis. I have never felt so yuck and short of breath before. Even walking around the house or talking for too long is enough to trigger a coughing fit. So to lose 300 grams when I haven't been moving, or tracking, or drinking water is pretty good.
I have joined a gym. I go in for my assessment and program on the 18th of next month- I need to get better before starting at the gym.
I'm actually looking forward to it... my membership not only covers a program being written up for me, access to the equipment but also unlimited classes, so I will really be able to get a variety of exercise in. The one thing I really like about this gym is no wall to wall mirrors. I love that!! I don't need to be staring into a mirror watching my fat arse wobbling like no tomorrow, and my body glowing bright red- so no wall to wall mirrors is a huge plus!!!
The whole atmosphere of the gym seems very ... comfortable I guess would be the word. There is no loud over the top music blaring- so I need to work on my mp3 play list... it's really hard to put into words the atmosphere- but I didn't feel like I was being judged and I didn't feel out of place there.
I'm missing work... I haven't been in the salon at all this week, hopefully tomorrow I'll be feeling human enough to go in- and I have really missed it. I've really been enjoying work the last few weeks, have been getting busier and it's driving me crazy being at home, not only because I have no-one to talk to- but because I feel like I am letting down my clients and my workmates by not being there.
I've really been missing my mum these last couple of weeks- and when I talk about my mum I am actually referring to my step-mum. We have this amazing relationship... we might not talk all the time, but I know that she is always there when I need her (and always has been). Over the years she has become not only my mum, but also a woman that I proudly include as one of my best friends. There has never been nothing that I couldn't talk to her about, she has always been there giving me support and guidance when I needed it. There have been times in my life when I really don't know what I would have done, or where I would be if it hadn't been for her- times when she has been the one person in my life who has pulled me aside (or taken me for a sundae in a car park) and really made me take a good honest look at my life and the situation I was in, and then supported me while I did whatever I needed to do to get my life back on track.
Anyway, my stomach is growling so I'm going to go make some breakfast...
Have a great week :)
I have literally spent the last 4 days in bed with bronchitis. I have never felt so yuck and short of breath before. Even walking around the house or talking for too long is enough to trigger a coughing fit. So to lose 300 grams when I haven't been moving, or tracking, or drinking water is pretty good.
I have joined a gym. I go in for my assessment and program on the 18th of next month- I need to get better before starting at the gym.
I'm actually looking forward to it... my membership not only covers a program being written up for me, access to the equipment but also unlimited classes, so I will really be able to get a variety of exercise in. The one thing I really like about this gym is no wall to wall mirrors. I love that!! I don't need to be staring into a mirror watching my fat arse wobbling like no tomorrow, and my body glowing bright red- so no wall to wall mirrors is a huge plus!!!
The whole atmosphere of the gym seems very ... comfortable I guess would be the word. There is no loud over the top music blaring- so I need to work on my mp3 play list... it's really hard to put into words the atmosphere- but I didn't feel like I was being judged and I didn't feel out of place there.
I'm missing work... I haven't been in the salon at all this week, hopefully tomorrow I'll be feeling human enough to go in- and I have really missed it. I've really been enjoying work the last few weeks, have been getting busier and it's driving me crazy being at home, not only because I have no-one to talk to- but because I feel like I am letting down my clients and my workmates by not being there.
I've really been missing my mum these last couple of weeks- and when I talk about my mum I am actually referring to my step-mum. We have this amazing relationship... we might not talk all the time, but I know that she is always there when I need her (and always has been). Over the years she has become not only my mum, but also a woman that I proudly include as one of my best friends. There has never been nothing that I couldn't talk to her about, she has always been there giving me support and guidance when I needed it. There have been times in my life when I really don't know what I would have done, or where I would be if it hadn't been for her- times when she has been the one person in my life who has pulled me aside (or taken me for a sundae in a car park) and really made me take a good honest look at my life and the situation I was in, and then supported me while I did whatever I needed to do to get my life back on track.
Anyway, my stomach is growling so I'm going to go make some breakfast...
Have a great week :)
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
20kgs lost- but do I deserve it?
After being really excited last week that I was only 200grams short of having lost 20kgs, I kinda slipped off the wagon.
I have had chocolate, pizza, maccas and not enough water since Friday and all without tracking any points :(
So come weigh-in this morning I found I had lost my 200grams I needed to reach 20kg lost, but I don't feel like I deserve it at all.
I am really disappointed in myself. I know I was using the excuse that I am due for my period this week for wanting junk food, but really when I search deep inside of me I am scared about losing weight.
I am now slightly smaller than I was when I got married 6 years ago (tried on my wedding dress last Friday night and it fits better now than it did on the day) and I guess that triggered my slide into high calorie and high fat food.
I scared about how my body is changing... I have gone lumpy- ok I was always big but my skin was firm, now it's getting lots of dimples and is starting to "hang". I'm scared that if I don't find me attractive then how will my husband? I don't even know how he ever did.
urgh... hope everyone is having a better day than I am
Bella
I have had chocolate, pizza, maccas and not enough water since Friday and all without tracking any points :(
So come weigh-in this morning I found I had lost my 200grams I needed to reach 20kg lost, but I don't feel like I deserve it at all.
I am really disappointed in myself. I know I was using the excuse that I am due for my period this week for wanting junk food, but really when I search deep inside of me I am scared about losing weight.
I am now slightly smaller than I was when I got married 6 years ago (tried on my wedding dress last Friday night and it fits better now than it did on the day) and I guess that triggered my slide into high calorie and high fat food.
I scared about how my body is changing... I have gone lumpy- ok I was always big but my skin was firm, now it's getting lots of dimples and is starting to "hang". I'm scared that if I don't find me attractive then how will my husband? I don't even know how he ever did.
urgh... hope everyone is having a better day than I am
Bella
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Week 17 weigh-in!
Just a quick entry to let you all know the results of weigh-in this morning.... 1.6kg lost this week, which brings my total to 19.1 in 17 weeks :)
Long day at work today, so I better get organised...
Hope everyone has an awesome day.
Bella
Long day at work today, so I better get organised...
Hope everyone has an awesome day.
Bella
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Long time ... no post....sorry
Whoops sorry for not posting recently... will try and catch you up on what has been happening.
I haven't tracked for 2 weeks, so tomorrow's weigh in shall be interesting. I only lost 100grams last week, and am expecting much the same this week.
The not tracking thing has been a real test- at first I was only doing a week to see how much I had learned during the previous 15 weeks. Then that first weekend (ANZAC long weekend) I had an impromptu trip to Sydney to see my friends and my mum. A weekend that resulted in way too much takeaway and a few wines. So when I lost 100 grams I was very happy.
So then I decided to see how I would go at home under normal circumstances to see if I could survive without tracking... tomorrow shall reveal how I went.
I have been so busy at work... so many things have changed and while it's all going good for now it is still all up in the air regarding my actual position in the salon.
Previously I was renting a space to do my nails in.... the salon was then sold, and the new owners are fantastic (as was the old owner who still works there). So now with the changes that have happened, I am no longer paying rent, and am now doing the waxing for the salon (going 50/50) as the hairdresser who use to do the waxing has moved on. Somehow in all the changes I have lost my day off during the week, and have been working 6 days a week. Which is a great way to increase my incidental exercise...lol.
I have yet another cold... I seem to just get over one, have a couple of days of feeling good and get another one. I literally fell asleep on the lounge before 7.30 last night, and have been resting in bed this afternoon since I came home (actually came home a couple of hours early as I had no clients and was feeling like crap). Thankfully Andrew is on holidays this week, and he has been doing all of the dinner cooking and organising the kids for me.
My weekend away was absolutely fantastic and no where near long enough. I finally got to meet my dearest friend Melissa's baby- Kaizen was born on New Years Eve and I hadn't had a chance to get to Sydney to meet her. She is absolutely adorable and made it so hard to come home...and I can't wait to see her grow into the beautiful little girl she is (although not too quickly..lol)
I got to see my 2 godsons...and their Dad (my other best friend Eric) as well as his partner Michelle and her daughter Lilly (this little girl has the most adorable sausage curls).
I also got to have lunch with my Mum. I really miss my mum and don't catch up with her anywhere as near as much as I would like to. She was also the first person to comment (without prompting) on my weightloss :)
Well my cold and flu medication is kicking in and I am getting sleepy, so will leave this until my weigh-in tomorrow.
Bella
I haven't tracked for 2 weeks, so tomorrow's weigh in shall be interesting. I only lost 100grams last week, and am expecting much the same this week.
The not tracking thing has been a real test- at first I was only doing a week to see how much I had learned during the previous 15 weeks. Then that first weekend (ANZAC long weekend) I had an impromptu trip to Sydney to see my friends and my mum. A weekend that resulted in way too much takeaway and a few wines. So when I lost 100 grams I was very happy.
So then I decided to see how I would go at home under normal circumstances to see if I could survive without tracking... tomorrow shall reveal how I went.
I have been so busy at work... so many things have changed and while it's all going good for now it is still all up in the air regarding my actual position in the salon.
Previously I was renting a space to do my nails in.... the salon was then sold, and the new owners are fantastic (as was the old owner who still works there). So now with the changes that have happened, I am no longer paying rent, and am now doing the waxing for the salon (going 50/50) as the hairdresser who use to do the waxing has moved on. Somehow in all the changes I have lost my day off during the week, and have been working 6 days a week. Which is a great way to increase my incidental exercise...lol.
I have yet another cold... I seem to just get over one, have a couple of days of feeling good and get another one. I literally fell asleep on the lounge before 7.30 last night, and have been resting in bed this afternoon since I came home (actually came home a couple of hours early as I had no clients and was feeling like crap). Thankfully Andrew is on holidays this week, and he has been doing all of the dinner cooking and organising the kids for me.
My weekend away was absolutely fantastic and no where near long enough. I finally got to meet my dearest friend Melissa's baby- Kaizen was born on New Years Eve and I hadn't had a chance to get to Sydney to meet her. She is absolutely adorable and made it so hard to come home...and I can't wait to see her grow into the beautiful little girl she is (although not too quickly..lol)
I got to see my 2 godsons...and their Dad (my other best friend Eric) as well as his partner Michelle and her daughter Lilly (this little girl has the most adorable sausage curls).
I also got to have lunch with my Mum. I really miss my mum and don't catch up with her anywhere as near as much as I would like to. She was also the first person to comment (without prompting) on my weightloss :)
Well my cold and flu medication is kicking in and I am getting sleepy, so will leave this until my weigh-in tomorrow.
Bella
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Another week, another loss...
Another 1.1kg gone and never to be on my hips again!!
Brings my total to 17.4kg since I started my Weight Watchers journey.
However looking back to where I was at my birthday last year- I couldn't even get a reading on my scales that weighed up to 160kg, and now I weigh 129!! I know that I still have a heap to lose, but since the end of September last year I have lost over 30kgs!!
So I am feeling rather proud of myself today... I'm in the 120's and haven't been there for a very long time, things are going better at work, I've thrown out some of my fat clothes and I'm actually starting to see some small changes in my body when I look in the mirror.
Have a great day everyone- I know I will
Bella
Brings my total to 17.4kg since I started my Weight Watchers journey.
However looking back to where I was at my birthday last year- I couldn't even get a reading on my scales that weighed up to 160kg, and now I weigh 129!! I know that I still have a heap to lose, but since the end of September last year I have lost over 30kgs!!
So I am feeling rather proud of myself today... I'm in the 120's and haven't been there for a very long time, things are going better at work, I've thrown out some of my fat clothes and I'm actually starting to see some small changes in my body when I look in the mirror.
Have a great day everyone- I know I will
Bella
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Better than I expected
Weigh-in results for this morning are much better than I expected...lost 600grams which brings my total to 16.3kg lost in 14 weeks.
But I'm still not happy- not because of the results on the scales, but because of the way I have been over the last week... I could have been so much better than what I was.
So this week I will:
* Drink at least 2L of water a day
* Eat less food that is high in sodium
* Eat more fresh fruit and vegetables
* Track everything that goes into my mouth
* Eat all my points- no more having 30+ saved points a week.
I am really disappointed in myself... I know that the program works, what I should be doing, and I want to do this- so why am I letting old habits sneak back in? I need to realise that this is going to be a lifelong change, this isn't going to be something I'm going to be able to stop and go back to my old way of living.
I guess though that knowledge is power (as I posted previously), and I should be grateful that I am able to recognise the old habits creeping back in, and be able to put a stop to them before any serious damage is done.
Hope everyone has a good day,
Bella
But I'm still not happy- not because of the results on the scales, but because of the way I have been over the last week... I could have been so much better than what I was.
So this week I will:
* Drink at least 2L of water a day
* Eat less food that is high in sodium
* Eat more fresh fruit and vegetables
* Track everything that goes into my mouth
* Eat all my points- no more having 30+ saved points a week.
I am really disappointed in myself... I know that the program works, what I should be doing, and I want to do this- so why am I letting old habits sneak back in? I need to realise that this is going to be a lifelong change, this isn't going to be something I'm going to be able to stop and go back to my old way of living.
I guess though that knowledge is power (as I posted previously), and I should be grateful that I am able to recognise the old habits creeping back in, and be able to put a stop to them before any serious damage is done.
Hope everyone has a good day,
Bella
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Really not looking forward to tomorrow's weigh-in
This past week has been shocking...
* I haven't been drinking all my water- it's getting cooler and I am really struggling to want to drink my 2L of water a day.
* I'm not eating enough- I know it sounds silly, but I've fallen back into my old habits of not eating during the day- I know it's stupid, I know that not eating properly spaced out meals and not eating during the day contributed to me getting as big as I did- so why am I falling back into my old habits?
* When I have eaten- I've eaten the "wrong" foods... without going over my points, I have managed to eat all the wrong foods- food high in sodium, not nutritionally "rich" food- a lot of empty calories.
I need to get out of my funk- and own the result on the scales tomorrow morning, dust myself off and get back into the swing of eating proper meals and drinking my water.
Hope everyone else is doing well.
Bella
* I haven't been drinking all my water- it's getting cooler and I am really struggling to want to drink my 2L of water a day.
* I'm not eating enough- I know it sounds silly, but I've fallen back into my old habits of not eating during the day- I know it's stupid, I know that not eating properly spaced out meals and not eating during the day contributed to me getting as big as I did- so why am I falling back into my old habits?
* When I have eaten- I've eaten the "wrong" foods... without going over my points, I have managed to eat all the wrong foods- food high in sodium, not nutritionally "rich" food- a lot of empty calories.
I need to get out of my funk- and own the result on the scales tomorrow morning, dust myself off and get back into the swing of eating proper meals and drinking my water.
Hope everyone else is doing well.
Bella
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Post-Easter weigh-in...
I am very happy to say that I had another loss this week. 700grams gone.. bringing my 13 week total up to 15.7kg.
I have nearly lost a quarter of all the weight I want to lose, and I have lost a quarter of what my husband weighs!! (yep he's tall and skinny)
Hope everyone who reads this (all 16 of my lovely followers) has a great week :)
Bella
I have nearly lost a quarter of all the weight I want to lose, and I have lost a quarter of what my husband weighs!! (yep he's tall and skinny)
Hope everyone who reads this (all 16 of my lovely followers) has a great week :)
Bella
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Taking on a new philosophy
I'm trying to bring in a whole new mind set. Yes it does go in hand with weight loss, but I'm also trying to make positive changes in other parts of my life... how this will work out- I'm not sure, but I will never know if I don't try.
1. Knowledge is power.
I refuse to let the unknown have control over me anymore. Even if I find out something bad/get bad news- I'm going to be trying my hardest to embrace it. This is actually something that I've been trying to do for a while- since the day I was told that the "growth" on my calf was in fact cancerous. As scary as being told I had cancer was, I can't help but think how much worse it could have been if I did not know. If I didn't know- then it would still be growing, could have spread and I wouldn't be sitting here cancer free.
2. Acceptance.
This goes with the first point... I need to accept the challenges that are put in front of me. I need to accept by abilities and my limitations. By doing this, I figure that I will be able to work out the best way to deal with any situation to the best of my abilities.
As long as I know I have done my best, then there is nothing else I can do. No point in stressing myself out by second guessing what I could have done. When I make a mistake, then I need to accept it, and move on. I read on the weight watchers forum a quote that was something like : "It's not what you have done that matters, but what you do next". So even if I do make a mistake, then nothing can change that- what's done is done.
3. Smile.
Simple thing to do, and can make such a huge difference- not only to yourself, but those around you. Even if I don't feel like smiling- I'm going to make myself... fake it until you make it.
I see it all the time at work- the benefits of a smile... if I smile, people around me smile, which then makes me want to smile more. I'm not talking about doing the cheesy forced smile, smiling is done with more than your lips... your eyes, and the way you hold your shoulders all can portray a smile.
I have a history with depression, and one of the girls I work with is an absolute god-send... everytime she would see me heading towards a dark place she would literally do this silly little dance and make me do it too- do you know how hard it is to be sad/miserable when you are doing a stupid little dance?
So that's my plan... that's what I am going to try and implement in my life... and let's hope I can follow through with it- especially tomorrow morning with my post-Easter weigh-in, a week which has seen hot cross buns, chocolate, takeaway and not enough water.
Bella
1. Knowledge is power.
I refuse to let the unknown have control over me anymore. Even if I find out something bad/get bad news- I'm going to be trying my hardest to embrace it. This is actually something that I've been trying to do for a while- since the day I was told that the "growth" on my calf was in fact cancerous. As scary as being told I had cancer was, I can't help but think how much worse it could have been if I did not know. If I didn't know- then it would still be growing, could have spread and I wouldn't be sitting here cancer free.
2. Acceptance.
This goes with the first point... I need to accept the challenges that are put in front of me. I need to accept by abilities and my limitations. By doing this, I figure that I will be able to work out the best way to deal with any situation to the best of my abilities.
As long as I know I have done my best, then there is nothing else I can do. No point in stressing myself out by second guessing what I could have done. When I make a mistake, then I need to accept it, and move on. I read on the weight watchers forum a quote that was something like : "It's not what you have done that matters, but what you do next". So even if I do make a mistake, then nothing can change that- what's done is done.
3. Smile.
Simple thing to do, and can make such a huge difference- not only to yourself, but those around you. Even if I don't feel like smiling- I'm going to make myself... fake it until you make it.
I see it all the time at work- the benefits of a smile... if I smile, people around me smile, which then makes me want to smile more. I'm not talking about doing the cheesy forced smile, smiling is done with more than your lips... your eyes, and the way you hold your shoulders all can portray a smile.
I have a history with depression, and one of the girls I work with is an absolute god-send... everytime she would see me heading towards a dark place she would literally do this silly little dance and make me do it too- do you know how hard it is to be sad/miserable when you are doing a stupid little dance?
So that's my plan... that's what I am going to try and implement in my life... and let's hope I can follow through with it- especially tomorrow morning with my post-Easter weigh-in, a week which has seen hot cross buns, chocolate, takeaway and not enough water.
Bella
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Surviving Easter and being sick
I love Easter- well I love chocolate and hot cross buns.
Add in the rotten headcold I seemed to have picked up, I think I am doing very well not to comfort myself with food. Oh I want to, believe me I want to... but I am so proud of myself. Even with the distraction of Easter and being sick- I still have not gone over my points this week. Admittedly the last couple of days I haven't had anywhere near enough water, and I haven't been ticking all the boxes in regards to fruit and vegetables- but I am at least trying and I'm not gorging myself on chocolate simply because the calender says it is Easter.
There is definitely a autumn chill in the air today, it's overcast and the perfect day for curling up and watching a movie or reading a book. I really haven't done a great deal of anything other than sleeping since Friday, and I don't see that changing much between now and when I have to go to work on Tuesday morning. Hopefully by then I will be feeling better.
Hope everyone has an enjoyable long weekend,
Bella
Add in the rotten headcold I seemed to have picked up, I think I am doing very well not to comfort myself with food. Oh I want to, believe me I want to... but I am so proud of myself. Even with the distraction of Easter and being sick- I still have not gone over my points this week. Admittedly the last couple of days I haven't had anywhere near enough water, and I haven't been ticking all the boxes in regards to fruit and vegetables- but I am at least trying and I'm not gorging myself on chocolate simply because the calender says it is Easter.
There is definitely a autumn chill in the air today, it's overcast and the perfect day for curling up and watching a movie or reading a book. I really haven't done a great deal of anything other than sleeping since Friday, and I don't see that changing much between now and when I have to go to work on Tuesday morning. Hopefully by then I will be feeling better.
Hope everyone has an enjoyable long weekend,
Bella
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
15kg GONE
Lost 1.1kg this week :)
Which brings my total to 15kgs gone in 12 weeks, and means that I have lost more than 10% of my starting weight.
:)
I'm pretty excited... I've never stuck with something long enough to lose 10% (or 15kgs) before. YAY me!!
Hope everyone has an awesome day.
Bella
Which brings my total to 15kgs gone in 12 weeks, and means that I have lost more than 10% of my starting weight.
:)
I'm pretty excited... I've never stuck with something long enough to lose 10% (or 15kgs) before. YAY me!!
Hope everyone has an awesome day.
Bella
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Whinge and comparison photos
I really just want this to all be done.
I know I didn't get this big overnight, and it's going to take more than a few months to lose it all- but I have moments where I just want it to be over with, I want to be able to enjoy shopping, I want to be able to do things without feeling utterly exhausted afterwards.
Guess I'm just having a sook... I know that I am feeling a *bit* better in myself, and I've had a couple of comments from people- but I would like to feel like all the work I am putting in is paying off...
So back in January, I had my husband take some photos on my phone, and today I had some more taken, so I have a comparison. The weight difference in the photos is 11kg.
Excuse how disgusting my hair looks in them...I can see some differences, but don't know if it's just wishful thinking or not. Would love comments on any changes that can be seen by others.
Bella
I know I didn't get this big overnight, and it's going to take more than a few months to lose it all- but I have moments where I just want it to be over with, I want to be able to enjoy shopping, I want to be able to do things without feeling utterly exhausted afterwards.
Guess I'm just having a sook... I know that I am feeling a *bit* better in myself, and I've had a couple of comments from people- but I would like to feel like all the work I am putting in is paying off...
So back in January, I had my husband take some photos on my phone, and today I had some more taken, so I have a comparison. The weight difference in the photos is 11kg.
Excuse how disgusting my hair looks in them...I can see some differences, but don't know if it's just wishful thinking or not. Would love comments on any changes that can be seen by others.
Bella
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
I've just realised what I've done
I've had a few comments from friends that my clothes are getting big on me, and I know that there are a couple of things in my wardrobe that are definitely too big for me. But I've just taken my measurements and have had a real look at the results.
When I started Weight Watchers on the 6th of January my measurements were
Arms : 46cm
Hips: 145cm
Bust: 127cm
Waist: 109cm
Thighs: 88cm
I just took them again and they are now
Arms: 42cm -4cm
Hips: 137cm -8cm
Bust: 122cm -5cm
Waist: 104cm -5cm
Thighs: 78cm -10cm
I've lost 10cm from each of my thighs 10 cm!!!! off each thigh!!!
I know I've still got a long way to go but I'm just blown away by the numbers. Certainly helps me feel a little less sorry for myself while I curl up with a hot water bottle (TTOM)
When I started Weight Watchers on the 6th of January my measurements were
Arms : 46cm
Hips: 145cm
Bust: 127cm
Waist: 109cm
Thighs: 88cm
I just took them again and they are now
Arms: 42cm -4cm
Hips: 137cm -8cm
Bust: 122cm -5cm
Waist: 104cm -5cm
Thighs: 78cm -10cm
I've lost 10cm from each of my thighs 10 cm!!!! off each thigh!!!
I know I've still got a long way to go but I'm just blown away by the numbers. Certainly helps me feel a little less sorry for myself while I curl up with a hot water bottle (TTOM)
Week 11 and still here :) and a new trophy for me
This is somewhat of a record for me...11 weeks in and I'm still here.
Lost another 0.8kg this week bringing my total to 13.9kg...and a mere 700g from my 10% goal :)
Last night I had my TAFE graduation and presentation night for my nail certificate which I finished last year. Apart from getting my certificate (with distinction ) I also won the Excellence in Training trophy. Something that I am very pleased and proud about. I won the same award for my beauty therapy certificate, however I truly did not expect to won this year as I thought there were some amazing nail technicians in my class and that I wasn't in the same league as them.
Don't really have much else to say at the moment, so will leave you all for now :)
Have a great day
Bella
ps a photo of Andrew and I that I took just before we went to the graduation last night
Lost another 0.8kg this week bringing my total to 13.9kg...and a mere 700g from my 10% goal :)
Last night I had my TAFE graduation and presentation night for my nail certificate which I finished last year. Apart from getting my certificate (with distinction ) I also won the Excellence in Training trophy. Something that I am very pleased and proud about. I won the same award for my beauty therapy certificate, however I truly did not expect to won this year as I thought there were some amazing nail technicians in my class and that I wasn't in the same league as them.
Don't really have much else to say at the moment, so will leave you all for now :)
Have a great day
Bella
ps a photo of Andrew and I that I took just before we went to the graduation last night
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Smashed it this week- week 10 weigh-in :)
After last weeks mere 200grams this week I lost a whooping 1.8kg. I actually weighed myself 3 times to make sure the scales were working properly :)
I've now lost 13.1kg in 10 weeks!
I'm only 1.5kg away from having lost 10% of my starting weight- so bring on the next couple of weeks... I say a couple of weeks because my pattern shows that next week is likely to be only a couple of hundred grams.
I was inspired by *Bitch Cakes* to take some photos of me in my underwear... however at the moment I look absolutely nothing like she does. So they won't be getting shown to anyone until I have lost more weight and have some decent comparison photos.
Hope everyone has an awesome day :)
Bella
I've now lost 13.1kg in 10 weeks!
I'm only 1.5kg away from having lost 10% of my starting weight- so bring on the next couple of weeks... I say a couple of weeks because my pattern shows that next week is likely to be only a couple of hundred grams.
I was inspired by *Bitch Cakes* to take some photos of me in my underwear... however at the moment I look absolutely nothing like she does. So they won't be getting shown to anyone until I have lost more weight and have some decent comparison photos.
Hope everyone has an awesome day :)
Bella
Monday, March 15, 2010
Have you ever?
Have you ever had one of those moments where you think "stuff it"? I'm having one right now.
The kids know the after school routine... they have heard me tell them what to do when they get home from school for years. So instead of repeating myself and getting frustrated that I am being ignored, I am going to sit here quietly. Sooner or later one of them is going to ask if they can turn on the tv or turn on a computer and I am going to calmly tell them no. When they ask why, (although I'm not sure whining is actually asking) I am going to, once again, calmly tell them that they should know why.
I am not going to engage in a yelling match, I am not going to be made feel like I am a horrible unloving mother because I want them to get out of their school uniforms, unpack their school bags, do their homework or the one job they each have (that they get paid to do). Hopefully by writing this I will have convinced myself enough to follow through with my plan...lol
So while I'm trying to distract myself and stay calm I will just ramble on some more....
Weightloss update.... well weigh-in isn't until Wednesday, so no news on that front, but I can tell you that I am feeling a little bit proud of myself. I'm nearing the end of my 10th week, and I am still following the plan. This is a huge deal for me. By now I would have normally given up/lost focus or just "forgotten" that I was on a diet. I know you shouldn't use the word diet- that you should be talking more in the way of "lifestyle changes" but at the moment- I'm still dieting. I still have to fight the urge to eat hot chips and gravy, to avoid the quick cheeseburger meal on the way home from shopping or have a chocolate/sugar fix when I'm quiet at work.
There are still so many habits that I have to fight to break, as well as trying to include the new habits (like drinking water) in my life.
I'm tired a lot lately too... I thought that you were meant to feel more energised as you lost weight? If I don't start to feel a bit better soon I'm going to go and talk to my doctor just to make sure everything is ok.
oohhh my husband just got home- wonder how he is going to react when he discovers the children not doing what they are meant to?
I'm going for a cuddle....
Bella
The kids know the after school routine... they have heard me tell them what to do when they get home from school for years. So instead of repeating myself and getting frustrated that I am being ignored, I am going to sit here quietly. Sooner or later one of them is going to ask if they can turn on the tv or turn on a computer and I am going to calmly tell them no. When they ask why, (although I'm not sure whining is actually asking) I am going to, once again, calmly tell them that they should know why.
I am not going to engage in a yelling match, I am not going to be made feel like I am a horrible unloving mother because I want them to get out of their school uniforms, unpack their school bags, do their homework or the one job they each have (that they get paid to do). Hopefully by writing this I will have convinced myself enough to follow through with my plan...lol
So while I'm trying to distract myself and stay calm I will just ramble on some more....
Weightloss update.... well weigh-in isn't until Wednesday, so no news on that front, but I can tell you that I am feeling a little bit proud of myself. I'm nearing the end of my 10th week, and I am still following the plan. This is a huge deal for me. By now I would have normally given up/lost focus or just "forgotten" that I was on a diet. I know you shouldn't use the word diet- that you should be talking more in the way of "lifestyle changes" but at the moment- I'm still dieting. I still have to fight the urge to eat hot chips and gravy, to avoid the quick cheeseburger meal on the way home from shopping or have a chocolate/sugar fix when I'm quiet at work.
There are still so many habits that I have to fight to break, as well as trying to include the new habits (like drinking water) in my life.
I'm tired a lot lately too... I thought that you were meant to feel more energised as you lost weight? If I don't start to feel a bit better soon I'm going to go and talk to my doctor just to make sure everything is ok.
oohhh my husband just got home- wonder how he is going to react when he discovers the children not doing what they are meant to?
I'm going for a cuddle....
Bella
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
There's a pattern developing
Seems I'm developing a weigh-in pattern, or rather a losing pattern.
With a loss of 200grams this week, bringing my total to 11.3kg I can see a pattern of losing under 500g one week, and losing over a kilo the next.
While I am happy to be losing, and I know that a small loss is still a loss- I would be lying if I was to say I wasn't disappointed when I weighed in and saw only a small loss.
The head game oftrying to lose weight losing weight can be really hard. Sticking to the plan, and making the right choices while trying to still live life with some kind of balance is tiring. I'm still waiting for "it" to become a habit- for making the right choices and knowing my portion sizes, to become automatic. It's time consuming having to weigh everything, and working out the points value of everything. I'm finding that I am starting to eat pretty much the same thing everyday and it is getting boring. But I'm going to stick with it, I am going to get healthy and fit.
Anyway it's time for breakfast :)
Bella
With a loss of 200grams this week, bringing my total to 11.3kg I can see a pattern of losing under 500g one week, and losing over a kilo the next.
While I am happy to be losing, and I know that a small loss is still a loss- I would be lying if I was to say I wasn't disappointed when I weighed in and saw only a small loss.
The head game of
Anyway it's time for breakfast :)
Bella
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
I got a star!!
hehehe weighed in this morning, and when I entered my weight on the Weight Watchers tracker I got a bouncing star for another 5kg gone!
I lost 1.3 this week, bringing my total to 11.1kg in 8 weeks :)
Today is my daughter's 11th birthday- so I have to make a birthday cake- the good thing is, I have already worked out the points, so I can have my cake and eat it too :)
Have a great day everyone
Bella
I lost 1.3 this week, bringing my total to 11.1kg in 8 weeks :)
Today is my daughter's 11th birthday- so I have to make a birthday cake- the good thing is, I have already worked out the points, so I can have my cake and eat it too :)
Have a great day everyone
Bella
Friday, February 26, 2010
What are you passionate about? What makes you smile?
I've been thinking a lot about what makes me happy lately... I guess the bad mood from earlier in the week made me look to within for something good.
I've got a few things that I'm passionate about... obviously the top of the list is my family.
I really got lucky 10 and a bit years ago when I met my husband- he never once hesitated in taking on me and my 2 children, never once begrudged them anything. He has supported me in everything I have ever wanted to do- be it the psychology/sociology degree that never got finished, the tafe courses (that did get finished), the numerous attempts at losing weight or the starting of my own business. I still find him incredibly attractive, and much to the "horror" of my children and the young girls I work alongside of in the salon- I am deeply in love with him and love him more each day. I know that sounds so corny.... I'll be the first to admit that it hasn't always been easy- and there are times when I am sure we could almost strangle each other- but when it comes down to it- I simply don't want to be without him. I am determined to make my marriage be one that my children can be proud of, that I can be proud of... that in 50 years time we can be one of those cute old couples that still hold hands walking down the street- ok so maybe by then it will be so we don't fall over, but hey at least he'll still be there beside me :)
My children... my sweet, loving, and often pain in the butt children. Each of them amazing me in different ways- and even though I wish they would clean their rooms without all the angst, I wouldn't want to be in this world without them. I have never felt exceptionally maternal and growing up, kids were never in my plans. I constantly worry that I'm not good enough for them, that I'm doing something wrong- but have been told that I wouldn't be a mum unless I did think like that...lol There is something reassuring and somewhat life affirming about watching your child grow, discover new things and sleep (especially sleep at the end of a long day...lol) I love listening them or watching them play together when they don't know I am. I love how my eldest sticks up for his sister even though he tells you she is the most annoying person ever, or how my daughter likes to make sure everyone is ok (she's like me in that regard) or how my youngest idolises his big brother and sister.
My job- I love my job, I seriously do... I get to make people feel better about themselves... be it by doing their nails, giving them a manicure or a pedicure, doing their makeup or even just being a willing ear to sit and listen to them and ask about their day. I know that sometimes it is nice to have someone who will listen to you. I've shared some important parts of my clients lives- wedding days, school formals, becoming grandparents, becoming parents, new relationships/relationship break downs, illness- all aspects of their lives that they share with me. Yes there are times that I really am not in the mood to hear about so&so's grandson, but my client never knows that, I always ask how they have been. (my client cards have notes about all sorts of things on them- ie upcoming holidays etc that I can look over before they arrive)
Books... I am passionate about books. I love the smell of books, the feel of the pages... the magic of losing myself into another world. I love that my eldest son also shares this passion- we often are reading the same books at the same time.
My friends... I can count on one hand how many true friends I have- and even though I have plenty of "mates" I really only have a couple of true friends. They are the types of friends that you can go weeks or months without seeing but when you get together it is like you've never been apart... that no matter what I am going through (or what they may be going through) we are always there for each other. These couple of friends I would happily give body parts to if they needed them.
Well I guess that is enough rambling from me for today- my man is due home any minute and I want a cuddle :)
oh a quote I heard recently (unfortunately at a funeral) is "Happiness is wanting what you have, not having what you want" and it really struck a chord with me, hope it does with you as well :)
Bella
My gorgeous family :)
I've got a few things that I'm passionate about... obviously the top of the list is my family.
I really got lucky 10 and a bit years ago when I met my husband- he never once hesitated in taking on me and my 2 children, never once begrudged them anything. He has supported me in everything I have ever wanted to do- be it the psychology/sociology degree that never got finished, the tafe courses (that did get finished), the numerous attempts at losing weight or the starting of my own business. I still find him incredibly attractive, and much to the "horror" of my children and the young girls I work alongside of in the salon- I am deeply in love with him and love him more each day. I know that sounds so corny.... I'll be the first to admit that it hasn't always been easy- and there are times when I am sure we could almost strangle each other- but when it comes down to it- I simply don't want to be without him. I am determined to make my marriage be one that my children can be proud of, that I can be proud of... that in 50 years time we can be one of those cute old couples that still hold hands walking down the street- ok so maybe by then it will be so we don't fall over, but hey at least he'll still be there beside me :)
My children... my sweet, loving, and often pain in the butt children. Each of them amazing me in different ways- and even though I wish they would clean their rooms without all the angst, I wouldn't want to be in this world without them. I have never felt exceptionally maternal and growing up, kids were never in my plans. I constantly worry that I'm not good enough for them, that I'm doing something wrong- but have been told that I wouldn't be a mum unless I did think like that...lol There is something reassuring and somewhat life affirming about watching your child grow, discover new things and sleep (especially sleep at the end of a long day...lol) I love listening them or watching them play together when they don't know I am. I love how my eldest sticks up for his sister even though he tells you she is the most annoying person ever, or how my daughter likes to make sure everyone is ok (she's like me in that regard) or how my youngest idolises his big brother and sister.
My job- I love my job, I seriously do... I get to make people feel better about themselves... be it by doing their nails, giving them a manicure or a pedicure, doing their makeup or even just being a willing ear to sit and listen to them and ask about their day. I know that sometimes it is nice to have someone who will listen to you. I've shared some important parts of my clients lives- wedding days, school formals, becoming grandparents, becoming parents, new relationships/relationship break downs, illness- all aspects of their lives that they share with me. Yes there are times that I really am not in the mood to hear about so&so's grandson, but my client never knows that, I always ask how they have been. (my client cards have notes about all sorts of things on them- ie upcoming holidays etc that I can look over before they arrive)
Books... I am passionate about books. I love the smell of books, the feel of the pages... the magic of losing myself into another world. I love that my eldest son also shares this passion- we often are reading the same books at the same time.
My friends... I can count on one hand how many true friends I have- and even though I have plenty of "mates" I really only have a couple of true friends. They are the types of friends that you can go weeks or months without seeing but when you get together it is like you've never been apart... that no matter what I am going through (or what they may be going through) we are always there for each other. These couple of friends I would happily give body parts to if they needed them.
Well I guess that is enough rambling from me for today- my man is due home any minute and I want a cuddle :)
oh a quote I heard recently (unfortunately at a funeral) is "Happiness is wanting what you have, not having what you want" and it really struck a chord with me, hope it does with you as well :)
Bella
My gorgeous family :)
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Week 7, a small loss
After a week where I was questioning if all the effort of losing weight was worth it- I had a small loss of 400grams this week. And now that my mood is improving, it is 400grams I am very grateful for.
I am amazed at the support on the weight watchers forum. I posted about my struggle and the encouragement I got was amazing- it is good to talk to someone who knows what you are going through, someone who understands the struggles of losing weight.
I know that there is going to be times when, like this last week, I will question my resolve and my ability to stick with the program but knowing that I'm not alone makes it that much less daunting.
Hopefully next week I will break through the 10kg lost barrier, I had been hoping to do it this week- but am 200grams short, so next week will be my week.
Here's to a better week,
Bella
I am amazed at the support on the weight watchers forum. I posted about my struggle and the encouragement I got was amazing- it is good to talk to someone who knows what you are going through, someone who understands the struggles of losing weight.
I know that there is going to be times when, like this last week, I will question my resolve and my ability to stick with the program but knowing that I'm not alone makes it that much less daunting.
Hopefully next week I will break through the 10kg lost barrier, I had been hoping to do it this week- but am 200grams short, so next week will be my week.
Here's to a better week,
Bella
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
OMG OMG They fit!!!
My wedding and engagement rings fit!!!
*does happy dance*
I stopped wearing them a few years ago, told myself (and everyone else) that it was because of the setting- that it sat up too high and I was worried about things getting caught and losing some of the diamonds. But truthfully it was because they were uncomfortably tight, and when my fingers swelled- it was almost painful.
So I was just sitting here missing my husband (as you know he's away for a couple of days with work) when I thought to try on my rings. And YAY they fit!!! This is a huge deal for me.
So now I sit here with rings on each ring finger- my wedding and engagement rings on my left hand and the amethyst ring my husband got my for a birthday one year on the other.
I am sooo happy!!
Bella
*does happy dance*
I stopped wearing them a few years ago, told myself (and everyone else) that it was because of the setting- that it sat up too high and I was worried about things getting caught and losing some of the diamonds. But truthfully it was because they were uncomfortably tight, and when my fingers swelled- it was almost painful.
So I was just sitting here missing my husband (as you know he's away for a couple of days with work) when I thought to try on my rings. And YAY they fit!!! This is a huge deal for me.
So now I sit here with rings on each ring finger- my wedding and engagement rings on my left hand and the amethyst ring my husband got my for a birthday one year on the other.
I am sooo happy!!
Bella
Week 6 weigh-in...another loss
Well the scales continue to be heading in the right direction :) A loss of 1.3kg this week, bringing my 6 week total to 9.4kg... so close to 10kg- hopefully next Wednesday I'll be able to say I've lost 10kg!!
I didn't sleep very well last night... I never seem to sleep well when Andrew is away (or me away from him) I guess the 10 years of sleeping beside him has become a habit...lol.
Anyway I need to get the kids organised and ready for school...have a great day
Bella
I didn't sleep very well last night... I never seem to sleep well when Andrew is away (or me away from him) I guess the 10 years of sleeping beside him has become a habit...lol.
Anyway I need to get the kids organised and ready for school...have a great day
Bella
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
aarrgghhh what a day
*breathe in, breathe out* *breathe in, breathe out**breathe in, breathe out*
My husband has left for a few days for work, he's been gone for all of an hour and already I am pulling my hair out with our 3 children.
I've had my eldest son at the psychologist- so he hates me (didn't want to go because he knew this session was one where I had to "report" back on what has been happening at home.)
My daughter is being a pre-teen princess... moody and stomping around.
And the youngest son hasn't stopped sooking since I picked him up from school... there's not anything actually wrong with him- he tired and knows that Dad has gone away.
I've had 3 requests for various takeaway- usually a treat when Dad goes away. The 3 requests were followed quickly by 3 definite no's. Which has of course added to the stomping, crying and bad moods.
So I've escaped to my room for 10 minutes to blog my feelings and frustrations instead of stuffing them away with food.
With Andrew being away it means that I can't go and take away my frustrations on the footpath unless I take 3 kids with me...which would kind of defeat the "escape" benefit of going for a walk.
*breathe in, breathe out*
Ok so I feel a little better now.
Bella
My husband has left for a few days for work, he's been gone for all of an hour and already I am pulling my hair out with our 3 children.
I've had my eldest son at the psychologist- so he hates me (didn't want to go because he knew this session was one where I had to "report" back on what has been happening at home.)
My daughter is being a pre-teen princess... moody and stomping around.
And the youngest son hasn't stopped sooking since I picked him up from school... there's not anything actually wrong with him- he tired and knows that Dad has gone away.
I've had 3 requests for various takeaway- usually a treat when Dad goes away. The 3 requests were followed quickly by 3 definite no's. Which has of course added to the stomping, crying and bad moods.
So I've escaped to my room for 10 minutes to blog my feelings and frustrations instead of stuffing them away with food.
With Andrew being away it means that I can't go and take away my frustrations on the footpath unless I take 3 kids with me...which would kind of defeat the "escape" benefit of going for a walk.
*breathe in, breathe out*
Ok so I feel a little better now.
Bella
Sunday, February 14, 2010
I want collarbones!! and ribs while I'm at it :)
I have a new goal... I want collarbones that you can see. And I want ribs that when I suck everything in you can see them (ribs without holding everything in isn't a good look in my opinion).
I have discovered that I have hip bones... admittedly I have to be laying down, and you have to make sure my "stomach pouch" isn't in the way (soooo getting rid of that when I'm at goal-that and the tuckshop lady batwings)... but I have hips bones- and they are hard!! Who knew? :)
So the discovery of hips bones that are hard, has led to the wanting of collarbones... I want to be able to wear all those tops and dresses with the pretty necklines, and have collarbones to show, not have it look like my breasts grow from my shoulders.
Now while I'm placing the order on body parts/ shape... I want a flat back... I don't want "back boobs", and I want shoulders that are boney (or is that bony?)... not shoulders that just slope down from my neck.
I'm hoping that ankles aren't to much to ask for either.
So what am I going to do to achieve all these fabulous body parts (apart from find the dollars to pay for the surgeon to take away all the excess skin...) ??
I'm going to be working my generous sized butt off...
I'm going to be doing :
* The C25k program http://www.c25k.com/
* The 100 push up program http://www.hundredpushups.com/
* The 200 sit up program http://www.twohundredsitups.com/ (stomach muscles hurt just thinking about this one)
* The 200 squat program http://www.twohundredsquats.com/
I'm sitting down today and working out a training program, one to ensure I'm using different muscle groups on different days so that I can have a recovery day between sessions.
It's only going to be 30-60 minutes a day...and hopefully it won't be too long before I can see results.
Well sitting here isn't going to get this body overhaul started... and yes there will be progress photos- but I'm not putting any "before" photos up until I have some "after" ones :)
Bella
I have discovered that I have hip bones... admittedly I have to be laying down, and you have to make sure my "stomach pouch" isn't in the way (soooo getting rid of that when I'm at goal-that and the tuckshop lady batwings)... but I have hips bones- and they are hard!! Who knew? :)
So the discovery of hips bones that are hard, has led to the wanting of collarbones... I want to be able to wear all those tops and dresses with the pretty necklines, and have collarbones to show, not have it look like my breasts grow from my shoulders.
Now while I'm placing the order on body parts/ shape... I want a flat back... I don't want "back boobs", and I want shoulders that are boney (or is that bony?)... not shoulders that just slope down from my neck.
I'm hoping that ankles aren't to much to ask for either.
So what am I going to do to achieve all these fabulous body parts (apart from find the dollars to pay for the surgeon to take away all the excess skin...) ??
I'm going to be working my generous sized butt off...
I'm going to be doing :
* The C25k program http://www.c25k.com/
* The 100 push up program http://www.hundredpushups.com/
* The 200 sit up program http://www.twohundredsitups.com/ (stomach muscles hurt just thinking about this one)
* The 200 squat program http://www.twohundredsquats.com/
I'm sitting down today and working out a training program, one to ensure I'm using different muscle groups on different days so that I can have a recovery day between sessions.
It's only going to be 30-60 minutes a day...and hopefully it won't be too long before I can see results.
Well sitting here isn't going to get this body overhaul started... and yes there will be progress photos- but I'm not putting any "before" photos up until I have some "after" ones :)
Bella
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
5th week wake up call
ok so not really a harsh wake up call... but weigh-in this morning has still affect my mood in a negative way.
I only lost 200 grams this week. And while I know logically a loss is a loss...and that the slower I lose the weight the more likely it is to stay off, I am still feeling really down and I can feel the old me sneaking in to my head and trying to sabotage what I have done.
The thing is I know where I went wrong this week... I simply didn't eat enough. Most nights of the past week I still had at least a third but more often than not, half of my daily allowance of points left over.
While I know that Weight Watchers as a program works, it is still hard to get use to the idea that to lose weight I need to eat. It's so hard to change the brain, to change everything I have ever thought about dieting. Logic, it appears, doesn't have a very strong hold in my mind when it comes to dieting/ weight loss yet, because I know all the things I need to do, I know all the things I should be doing but it is still hard to break the habit.
I sit here now and I'm scared... scared that I'm going to fall back into my old habits, scared that the thoughts I'm having of just giving up will take over. I need for logic to win over emotions this time, my children need for logic to win over emotions.... I just don't know if I have the strength to do this.
Bella
I only lost 200 grams this week. And while I know logically a loss is a loss...and that the slower I lose the weight the more likely it is to stay off, I am still feeling really down and I can feel the old me sneaking in to my head and trying to sabotage what I have done.
The thing is I know where I went wrong this week... I simply didn't eat enough. Most nights of the past week I still had at least a third but more often than not, half of my daily allowance of points left over.
While I know that Weight Watchers as a program works, it is still hard to get use to the idea that to lose weight I need to eat. It's so hard to change the brain, to change everything I have ever thought about dieting. Logic, it appears, doesn't have a very strong hold in my mind when it comes to dieting/ weight loss yet, because I know all the things I need to do, I know all the things I should be doing but it is still hard to break the habit.
I sit here now and I'm scared... scared that I'm going to fall back into my old habits, scared that the thoughts I'm having of just giving up will take over. I need for logic to win over emotions this time, my children need for logic to win over emotions.... I just don't know if I have the strength to do this.
Bella
I need for the angel to win this " battle of the bulge"
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Changes I'm noticing....
ok so I'm only in my 5th week, and have only lost 7.9kg but I'm starting to notice some changes.
It's getting easier to do things.... things like walking... while I still have a long way to go it's getting easier to do.
I've also noticed my stomach is getting flabbier- while it is still big, it is no longer as firm as it was. It's getting saggy...LOL... a bit like how your stomach feels after you've had a baby.
I'm also in less pain. I often get pain in my hips and knees, and although I am still getting some pain it isn't as much as I was getting.
I'm determined to start doing more exercise... I want to start the C25K program. I have downloaded the podcasts and am going to be starting this week. I am planning on doing week 1 for at least a couple of weeks. It scares me...correction it absolutely terrifies me- the thought of running. However I have a girlfriend that is leaving for Ireland- for 2 years :( in 14 weeks and I want to go for a run with her before she leaves. So I have a deadline... still not sure if that is good or not, because if I don't make it then I'm worried about what will happen but I'm hoping that because I'm in a better head space now I won't de-rail.
The fact that I'm even thinking about running is a change for me... I would never have thought about runniing before and now I have it as a goal.
That's all for now, I'm taking my daughter out for her first horseriding lesson... oh that's another goal for me to be able to do.
Bella
It's getting easier to do things.... things like walking... while I still have a long way to go it's getting easier to do.
I've also noticed my stomach is getting flabbier- while it is still big, it is no longer as firm as it was. It's getting saggy...LOL... a bit like how your stomach feels after you've had a baby.
I'm also in less pain. I often get pain in my hips and knees, and although I am still getting some pain it isn't as much as I was getting.
I'm determined to start doing more exercise... I want to start the C25K program. I have downloaded the podcasts and am going to be starting this week. I am planning on doing week 1 for at least a couple of weeks. It scares me...correction it absolutely terrifies me- the thought of running. However I have a girlfriend that is leaving for Ireland- for 2 years :( in 14 weeks and I want to go for a run with her before she leaves. So I have a deadline... still not sure if that is good or not, because if I don't make it then I'm worried about what will happen but I'm hoping that because I'm in a better head space now I won't de-rail.
The fact that I'm even thinking about running is a change for me... I would never have thought about runniing before and now I have it as a goal.
That's all for now, I'm taking my daughter out for her first horseriding lesson... oh that's another goal for me to be able to do.
Bella
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Another weigh-in and another loss :)
Had my 4th weigh-in this morning and I have lost another 1.4kg for the week, bringing my total to 7.9kg gone in 4 weeks. This also means that I have lost over 5% of my starting weight... go team me :)
I'm starting to notice the loss in a few of my clothes, which is good. I have a couple of things in my wardrobe that I would love to be able to fit back into on my way to goal. The good thing is that these are starting to fit a little better.
Anyway I better get the morning routine started.
Have a great day ...
Bella
I'm starting to notice the loss in a few of my clothes, which is good. I have a couple of things in my wardrobe that I would love to be able to fit back into on my way to goal. The good thing is that these are starting to fit a little better.
Anyway I better get the morning routine started.
Have a great day ...
Bella
Monday, February 1, 2010
Trying to avoid emotional eating
Oh man what an afternoon....
My eldest son has just started to high school, and after being bullied throughout primary school he was hoping that it would be a new start. Unfortunately it hasn't been :(
It has been a horrible start to the week, with him being in tears this afternoon saying that he wishes he didn't exist, and that his life is just "too hard" and that he doesn't matter to anyone.
I sat and cried with him, trying to console him, reassure him and convince him that he is in fact important etc.
He has been seeing a psychologist over the Christmas holidays, as there are a few issues that have needed to be addressed - and he had been making some progress... but now it's like all the hard work we have put in has been undone. I feel so helpless that he is hurting and I can't do anything about it. I'm terrified that he will end up in the statistics of male teen suicide :(
It is taking all the will power I have to not try and find comfort in food... to not stuff away my fears and anxieties under a mountain of chocolate. So here I am trying to get everything out and avoid the cupboard...
Here's to avoiding the cupboard and resisting the urge to bail up the kids who like to torment my son and give them a taste of their own medicine.
Bella
My eldest son has just started to high school, and after being bullied throughout primary school he was hoping that it would be a new start. Unfortunately it hasn't been :(
It has been a horrible start to the week, with him being in tears this afternoon saying that he wishes he didn't exist, and that his life is just "too hard" and that he doesn't matter to anyone.
I sat and cried with him, trying to console him, reassure him and convince him that he is in fact important etc.
He has been seeing a psychologist over the Christmas holidays, as there are a few issues that have needed to be addressed - and he had been making some progress... but now it's like all the hard work we have put in has been undone. I feel so helpless that he is hurting and I can't do anything about it. I'm terrified that he will end up in the statistics of male teen suicide :(
It is taking all the will power I have to not try and find comfort in food... to not stuff away my fears and anxieties under a mountain of chocolate. So here I am trying to get everything out and avoid the cupboard...
Here's to avoiding the cupboard and resisting the urge to bail up the kids who like to torment my son and give them a taste of their own medicine.
Bella
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Sleepy Sunday afternoon :)
Don't you just love Sunday afternoons? I know I do... it's generally the only time of the week that we are all home together and actually have time to do things together.
I went out to dinner last night with the girls from the salon that I work in... and am very proud of myself for avoiding fried food and alcohol. Had some grilled fish and salad, and drank water all night. Yet despite not drinking I still managed to trip flat onto my face and have a grazed knee (I am such a clutz- lets hope that improves as I try and do more exercise...lol)
I worked this morning (my 2nd job- working in a coffee shop as a waitress/barista/short order cook) And even though I only worked for 3 hours I had sweat pouring out of me and hardly stopped the entire time.
Came home and had some lunch, then did a light work out with some free weights and then played the Wii with Andrew for a while.
I'm looking forward to this week... I'm surprised with how focussed I still feel considering I'm in my 4th week- normally by this stage I have lost interest, or at least my motivation has dropped but I'm still here and still looking forward to becoming much healthier and fitter as I continue on this journey. I think I've also surprised Andrew with how motivated I still am.
Hope you all have a fantastic week...
Bella
I went out to dinner last night with the girls from the salon that I work in... and am very proud of myself for avoiding fried food and alcohol. Had some grilled fish and salad, and drank water all night. Yet despite not drinking I still managed to trip flat onto my face and have a grazed knee (I am such a clutz- lets hope that improves as I try and do more exercise...lol)
I worked this morning (my 2nd job- working in a coffee shop as a waitress/barista/short order cook) And even though I only worked for 3 hours I had sweat pouring out of me and hardly stopped the entire time.
Came home and had some lunch, then did a light work out with some free weights and then played the Wii with Andrew for a while.
I'm looking forward to this week... I'm surprised with how focussed I still feel considering I'm in my 4th week- normally by this stage I have lost interest, or at least my motivation has dropped but I'm still here and still looking forward to becoming much healthier and fitter as I continue on this journey. I think I've also surprised Andrew with how motivated I still am.
Hope you all have a fantastic week...
Bella
Friday, January 29, 2010
tough day, but it's all good
I had a really bad day today, emotions running all over the place, and I actually cried on the way home from work (left early- had no clients booked in)... I felt like curling up in a ball, no actually I felt like filling myself with all sorts of yummy yet "oh so naughty" food. Instead I went and walked all around Bunnings looking at different plants etc that we want for our front yard. Then I went grocery shopping, avoided temptation, came home had lunch and then had a nap (both Andrew and I aren't feeling too well, so a nap was needed)
Looking back on the day, I'm actually quite proud of the way I reacted to today. A couple of months ago I would have driven home via Maccas or KFC and stuffed way the feelings. Instead I let myself acknowledge the way I was feeling, and then made some positive choices about how to deal with them.
'Til next time :)
Bella
Looking back on the day, I'm actually quite proud of the way I reacted to today. A couple of months ago I would have driven home via Maccas or KFC and stuffed way the feelings. Instead I let myself acknowledge the way I was feeling, and then made some positive choices about how to deal with them.
'Til next time :)
Bella
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Week 3 and another loss!!
27/01/2010
*YAY* another 1.4kg gone!! Bringing my total to 6.5kg in 3 weeks.
So I've been a bit busy... I've started a second job- working part time in a coffee-shop. Had a great day today, although I was busy and forgot to eat .... need to make sure I have some snacks prepared so I can eat on the run.
I'm sitting here now letting my dinner settle and still have over half my points left for the day- and that is without calculating exercise points for the day... oops.... guess that means I might be able to have an extra special treat tonight.
Back to school for my 3 munchkins tomorrow... with my eldest Lachlan starting high school...eek ... now there's a way to feel instantly older. LOL
Andrew has a week off work, and was doing all the "stay at home parent" running around today...lol... I think he was a tad surprised at busy you can get when you stay at home with children :) Child-free day tomorrow, and both of us have the day off work...so not sure what we are going to do, may just stay at home and enjoy the quiet.
bye for now
Bella
*YAY* another 1.4kg gone!! Bringing my total to 6.5kg in 3 weeks.
So I've been a bit busy... I've started a second job- working part time in a coffee-shop. Had a great day today, although I was busy and forgot to eat .... need to make sure I have some snacks prepared so I can eat on the run.
I'm sitting here now letting my dinner settle and still have over half my points left for the day- and that is without calculating exercise points for the day... oops.... guess that means I might be able to have an extra special treat tonight.
Back to school for my 3 munchkins tomorrow... with my eldest Lachlan starting high school...eek ... now there's a way to feel instantly older. LOL
Andrew has a week off work, and was doing all the "stay at home parent" running around today...lol... I think he was a tad surprised at busy you can get when you stay at home with children :) Child-free day tomorrow, and both of us have the day off work...so not sure what we are going to do, may just stay at home and enjoy the quiet.
bye for now
Bella
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Being sick does nothing for your appetite
Sun, 24 Jan 2010
I'm sick, and have been for over a week... but now it's really getting to me.
I've got tonsilitis and an infection under one of my teeth (more about my teeth and dentist phobia at a later date)
So anyway on Friday morning I woke up to find the right side of my face swollen... so off to the drs I go.
I am now on 2 different types of antibiotics that have to be either taken immediately before food or immediately after- and the pharmacist said to try and avoid taking them at the same meal.
The only problem is- I feel sick, I don't feel like eating.
I've been struggling to eat my points each day (for those that don't know with Weight Watchers food has a point value depending on the kJ's and saturated fat, and you get a certain number of points to eat each day depending on age, height, weight, activity level)... and having to eat to take these tablets makes it hard... and to make it worse, having something light to eat isn't enough- if I don't eat with these tablets I feel like I'm going to puke.
Anyway I better go and have some dinner...blah
Bella
I'm sick, and have been for over a week... but now it's really getting to me.
I've got tonsilitis and an infection under one of my teeth (more about my teeth and dentist phobia at a later date)
So anyway on Friday morning I woke up to find the right side of my face swollen... so off to the drs I go.
I am now on 2 different types of antibiotics that have to be either taken immediately before food or immediately after- and the pharmacist said to try and avoid taking them at the same meal.
The only problem is- I feel sick, I don't feel like eating.
I've been struggling to eat my points each day (for those that don't know with Weight Watchers food has a point value depending on the kJ's and saturated fat, and you get a certain number of points to eat each day depending on age, height, weight, activity level)... and having to eat to take these tablets makes it hard... and to make it worse, having something light to eat isn't enough- if I don't eat with these tablets I feel like I'm going to puke.
Anyway I better go and have some dinner...blah
Bella
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Here goes nothing
23 Jan 2010
Ok so I figured that this is going to be a long journey- this losing weight and getting healthy caper- so why not try and document it all.... get my thoughts out of my head, and hopefully be able to make some sense of my life.
So I started Weight Watchers for what feels like the millionth time 2 and a bit weeks ago (06/01/2010), and at the moment things seem to be going pretty good... my motivation is relatively high. Probably spurred on by the fact that I have lost 5.1kg in those two weeks :)
My husband, Andrew, is supportive as he always is... but I think he's just waiting for me to lose focus and put the weight back on. And given my history over the last 10 years, I can't blame him.
I have set myself the goal of losing what Andrew weighed on the 6th Jan 2010... 67.9kg.... that will bring me to just above the "healthy weight" range for my height. And while I have a numerical goal in mind, I'm going to be happy to be able to buy normal clothes... to be able to buy jeans from Jeans West :)
So thanks for reading...
Bella
Ok so I figured that this is going to be a long journey- this losing weight and getting healthy caper- so why not try and document it all.... get my thoughts out of my head, and hopefully be able to make some sense of my life.
So I started Weight Watchers for what feels like the millionth time 2 and a bit weeks ago (06/01/2010), and at the moment things seem to be going pretty good... my motivation is relatively high. Probably spurred on by the fact that I have lost 5.1kg in those two weeks :)
My husband, Andrew, is supportive as he always is... but I think he's just waiting for me to lose focus and put the weight back on. And given my history over the last 10 years, I can't blame him.
I have set myself the goal of losing what Andrew weighed on the 6th Jan 2010... 67.9kg.... that will bring me to just above the "healthy weight" range for my height. And while I have a numerical goal in mind, I'm going to be happy to be able to buy normal clothes... to be able to buy jeans from Jeans West :)
So thanks for reading...
Bella
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